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Scientology/Narconon Creates Fake Website Based on Reachingforthetippingpoint.net
https://pastthetippingpoint.net/ which lies about what Narconon really is, a Scientology scam
Narconon created the fake site in hopes that their website would come up on searches when people where looking for the truth about Narconon.
The actual site that shows the danger of Narconon:
(The fact a rehab center would do this should be one clue that Narconon is NOT a rehab center.)
This is the first page on the real site:
What is Narconon? Why should I be concerned? Have you attended a Narconon program? Please consider doing the Narconon Survey here: http://reachingforthetippingpoint.net/narcononsurvey/
Narconon has been receiving some bad press lately. Most recently, there have been news stories about 3 deaths within a 7 month period at Narconon Arrowhead in Oklahoma: on the forum, read Narconon Oklahoma Multiple Deaths, and the death of Patrick W. Desmond at Narconon of Georgia: on the forum, read The Desmond Family v. Narconon of Georgia, Narconon International, et al.
Court filings from the Patrick Desmond case can be viewed and downloaded here: Desmond v. Narconon.
Unfortunately, those are not the only deaths. Deaths have occured throughout Narconon's history. There is an incomplete list in the thread Narconon Deaths.
You would think that, if something as serious as death continues to occur with a particular rehab method, the methods should be changed to incorporate safer and more modern practices. Narconon does not do this, but instead has the attitude that their program is authoritative, and if problems occur, the problem is with the client, not with Narconon. Nothing could be further from the truth.
More About Narconon Narconon is a controversial drug rehabilitation program based on the ideas of L. Ron Hubbard, a science fiction writer and founder of the Church of Scientology. Many people believe that Narconon is simply a front group for Scientology with the purpose of making money and recruiting new members for Scientology. Although Narconon is recognized as a non-profit 501(c) (3) organization, it does charge for services.
For information about other Scientology-run front groups, visit our What is Scientology? page.
Narconon’s ties to Scientology are not disclosed or readily available to its clients who are making a decision on treatment for drug addiction at a vulnerable time in their lives. Additionally, Narconon’s doctrines and organization are nearly identical to Scientology’s.
Narconon has an aggressive web presence and registers web sites with misleading names, which are presented as objective reviews of drug rehab centers but are actually used as advertisements for Narconon.
When many people hear the name "Narconon," they think it is another name for Narcotics Anonymous. It isn't.
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Learn more about L. Ron Hubbard's lack of qualifications here: http://www.cs.cmu.edu/~dst/Narconon/science.htm There is a list of Narconon's unsafe practices, including a list of the vitamins and minerals used in the program, here: http://www.cs.cmu.edu/~dst/Narconon/detox.htm The Food and Drug Administration's Recommended Daily Values can be found here: http://www.fda.gov/Food/GuidanceComplianceRegulatoryInformation/GuidanceDocuments/FoodLabelingNutrition/FoodLabelingGuide/ucm064928.htm What about Narconon staff? Narconon often employs former clients who have recently completed the program. This is a huge risk for newly recovering clients. It is not unusual for former alcoholics or addicts to enter the counseling field. However, this is usually after an established period of sobriety and formal training or certification as a substance abuse counselor has been completed. This is not the case at Narconon. In addition, Narconon of Georgia was recently cited for inappropriate monitoring of drug screens on clients and employees.
What kind of training do Narconon staff members have? Where does the staff of Narconon come from? http://www.cs.cmu.edu/~dst/Narconon/staff.htm The Board of Mental Health of the State of Oklahoma investigated Narconon for certification as a drug and treatment facility in 1992 and found that Narconon hires former students (as clients are called) immediately upon graduation, as well as other alarming observations: http://www.xenu.net/archive/oca/narconon/91report.html An article from March 21, 2010, entitled "Intoxicated by Narconon" was published in a Canadian newspaper, "le Soleil." Here is the original article in French: http://www.cyberpresse.ca/le-soleil/actualites/societe/201003/20/01-4262723-intoxique-par-leglise-de-scientologie.php. Here is an English translation: http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?t=17001. This testimony from a former staff member states that many Narconon graduates go on to work at the facility due to pressure from current staff: http://www.anti-scientologie.ch/narconon-testimony.htm Criminon Second Chance, and other Narconon affiliates Criminon Second Chance is a prison-based version of Narconon that seeks public funding for the program. Criminon Second Chance was evicted from Alberqueue, New Mexico after breaking an agreement with the City. They were allowed to operate a facility in an old jail to house nonviolent male inmates with a history of substance abuse problems, but were found to be housing violent offenders and women inmates also. After being given a notice to comply with the agreement, they left secretively in the middle of the night with 19 inmates in an old bus, leaving their rent and utility bills unpaid. Scientology promotes this front organization without revealing the connection to Narconon or Scientology. Read more about Criminon Second Chance here: http://forum.reachingforthetippingpoint.net/index.php/page,Criminon.html
In order to avoid the bad reputation that is developing from public exposure of the Narconon program, some "Sauna Detox" programs are using names which do not include "Narconon", but use the same L. Ron Hubbard and Scientology techniques and course material for the program. For addictions that require it, some Narconon-affiliated programs use a medical detox procedure first, and then refer people on to a more standard Narconon-style sauna detox with Scientology-based coursework. Some of these include (but are not limited to) generic names like New Life and First Step, Pur Detox, and Best Drug Rehab; and more specific sounding names like Sunshine Summit Lodge, Huntington Harbor House, Novus Detox, and Suncoast Rehab Center.
Finding a good, legitimate rehab facility If you are seeking a drug rehab facility, the most important thing you can do is to research the facility by name. Once you have narrowed down to a few that you are considering, check with the agency in the state or country that licenses drug rehab facilities about prior violations and license revocations for the specific facilities. Ask for specifics about the program - exactly what the program entails, how long it will last, who the program director is and what their qualifications are, who the medical director is, what the policy is with regard to employment of counselors and other staff members, and ask to tour the facility first before signing anything. Ask advice on some of the discussion forums that specialize in drug and alcohol rehab. Ask advice from people you know. The main thing you want to do is avoid being in a hurry and not thoroughly researching the facility you choose. There are good programs out there - they may just not be the first ones you find when you search the web.
Are you still considering going to Narconon? Before you decide, please read about the experiences of someone who's been there: My Narconon Story, by Sekh:
SEKH'S EXPERIENCE AT NARCONON My Narconon Story, by Sekh Have you attended a Narconon program? Please consider doing the Narconon Survey here: http://reachingforthetippingpoint.net/narcononsurvey/
Would you like to discuss Narconon? Do it in the Narconon section of our forum: Narconon and related groups here: http://forum.reachingforthetippingpoint.net/index.php/board,46.0.html
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Then, out of nowhere, my ex-husband called me. He was also a heavy drug-user. He told me he was in this place, Narconon, to get rid of the drugs, and it was so different from any other rehab program, it was just great. Maybe I could find help there too.
So we talked a bit, and I told him I would think about it, and he said he would call me again soon, to tell me how he was doing. Though we were divorced, we always remained friends, and I was glad he found a place where people could help him. He called me several times over the next week, and I started thinking about my life, and about the opportunity to get clean, and that maybe I should go there too, so I asked to talk to a staff-member.
No problem, this very friendly guy took over the phone and listened to my story. He really seemed to understand what I was saying, and he really started me thinking about hope. Hope is a mighty big thing when you're addicted, because usually there doesn't seem to be any.
I only had two questions. The first: Could I take my little daughter with me? He said that it wasn't good for her to be with me while I was in detox, but afterwards she could come and I could finish the program with her there. That sounded very sensible. My son had to go to school, so he could not come with me anyway, but he could stay with my parents.
My second question was about scientology. I knew there was some link between Narconon and the Church of Scientology. Had he denied that, I would have exposed him as a liar, but he gave me my first taste of "acceptable truth" right there on the phone. He said:" Our philosophy was developed by L. Ron Hubbard, who also founded Church of Scientology. So Narconon uses some scientology techniques, but is a totally independent foundation, and there are no ties to the church. People from every faith are welcome, we are strictly neutral about religion."
All very reasonable, quite believable. He put my ex back on the line and let him finish the job of luring me in. At the end of the conversation I promised to come the next day. At that moment I believed that I was given a great opportunity to turn my life around.
That night I arranged the staying of my children with their grandparents, and a neighbor to feed my pets and take care of my plants and I packed a suitcase with some clothes and other necessary stuff. Early the following morning I took the train to Zutphen, about one hour from my hometown.
From the station I called Narconon an they sent a car to pick me up. Great service. To my surprise my ex-husband, let's call him Bob, accompanied the driver, and after some hugging, crying and kissing we took of to the Narconon premises.
I wasn't quite sure what to expect; something like a hospital, or maybe a kind of farm-like setting, but it turned out to be a villa in the center of town, built somewhere between the two world wars and in a poor state of maintenance. The first thing that happened was a thorough check of my suitcase, looking for drugs, alcohol and medications. Then a female staff-member asked me to take my clothes of, so she could check my body for “contraband”.
Remember, I hadn't yet agreed to follow the program, hadn't even had an intake-procedure of some kind. I tried to rationalize this by saying to myself that they had the safety of their patients to concern and didn't protest, not even when they took my books, my personal papers,my jewelery and money and even some cosmetic articles away “for storage”. After this visitation I was introduced to the staff, an American lady named Joanna who was the director and some Dutch volunteers who were ex-clients themselves.
Joanna and I had a long talk. I asked her from which state she was, recognizing her obvious American accent when speaking Dutch, but she said she was born and raised in Holland, and had not even been in America. Then where did the accent originate?
She claimed she came from Volendam, a fishing village in the west of Holland, that was why her speech sounded funny for someone from the east of the country like me. What was the woman thinking? That one doesn't hear the difference between a dialect and a foreign accent? Did she really think me that gullible? That was when the first red light in my head went off. But remember, I was desperate, running out of options, trusting my ex-husband and really wanting this to be something good. So I swallowed away my doubts. Not for the last time.
Joanna wanted to know about my drug history, my medical history, especially my psychiatric history. She wanted to know my financial background, my family's financial background, my religious background, and I had to sign some liability wavers, strictly routine of course, and than I was showed the house. There was an office, authorized personnel only, there was a communal living, with some old couches and chairs, and a fairly dirty kitchen annex dining-room.
Upstairs were the bedrooms; 2 to 4 persons of the same sex in a room. I was given a bed in a 2-person room. Luckily there was no other female to share with, so I had the luxury of my own bedroom.
Old mattresses, used by many people, and the laundry was changed just once a week, even for those in detox. The bedrooms didn't smell too good.... People kicking heroin tend to sweat a lot.
Down in the basement were the therapy-rooms and the famous sauna. It all looked rather primitive. Not that that was of the most importance, I could take that if they could cure me, but I did start wondering if it would be a good idea to take my two year old daughter to such a dirty and poorly maintained place. I also didn't see any other children in the house. It turned out that the promise about bringing my baby was another example of acceptable truth according to LRH. No way they were going to let me have my kid there, they just knew that I wouldn't have come if they said NO right away.
After the formalities were done I was offered a cup of tea in the living-room. To my surprise I met Jay there, a good mutual friend of Bob and me. He'd been at Narconon for some weeks now, he recruited Bob and Bob recruited me. One big happy family.....
Jay's mother came from a very wealthy family. She died of cancer about a year before this all happened, and, knowing about her sons drug-addiction, she put up this trust for him with a generous monthly allowance until he reached the age of 35 (He was about 25).
At 35 he would come in complete control of his inheritance, which amounted to a multimillion sum. His mother was afraid he'd spend it all on drugs, so she built in this safety, hoping that age would make him a little wiser. She, of course, never considered the lawyers of the Scientology church. More about that later.
To stay at Narconon you had to pay 100 guilders a day. Jay paid this for his friend Bob. My parents were willing to pay this for me. They were not rich people, but they had some savings and since I'm their only child, they thought it worthwhile. I made the arrangement with Joanna that I would pay for the first week myself, and that they wouldn't bother my parents about money before the second week. In the past I screwed up several rehab attempts during the first week because I couldn't stand the pain of cold turkey detox. I knew that, if I passed the first week, I'd probably complete the program. I didn't want my parents to be bothered about money before there was a fair chance of success. Joanna promised me that she wouldn't talk to my parents before day 7 and not without my knowledge.
The detox treatment consisted of massive doses of vitamins, weird communication trainings, and so called assists. I remember staring into each others eyes for hours, answering nonsense questions for hours, the so called bull-baiting, trying to upset the other over his/her weaknesses, the body-com, an assist to focus your thoughts on the here and now, went like this. While laying on a bed a volunteer put his/her hands on parts of your body, said “ feel my hands” and then you had to say thank you. And this went over and over again. Another was the nerve assist, which I personally found somewhat effective, but basically it was no more than an elaborate relaxing exercise.
Well, you can say that these things don't harm, but they don't really help either. What harmed were the absurd doses of vitamins and minerals without any medical supervision. Sure, you’d get a checkup before the sauna-treatment started, but the Church of Scientology doctor lived in Amsterdam, a two hour drive from Zutphen, and they didn't take you to a local doctor, not even in emergencies. I never saw this doctor.
That's why I never made it to the sauna, thank goodness. It is dangerous and scientifically unsound, it doesn't even make sense according to LHR's theories. Toxins, according to Hubbard, store in fat. By sweating you loose water, no fat, so what's the use? 5 hours of sauna daily plus strenuous physical excercise cause exhaustion and dehydration, even in people in great shape. Most drug-addicts are not. Combined with sleep deprivation, which comes naturally when going cold turkey, bad food, sessions of repeating the same nonsense for hours, badgering, bullying and bringing on fear (If you leave here you die, we are your last chance) this program is an example of classical brainwashing which the Chinese and the North Koreans couldn't improve.
After three days without sleep things became funny. I started wondering why we had to greet L. Ron Hubbard's portrait every morning, and why it was strictly forbidden to look into the course-material of those who were further along in the program. I started asking questions, first to myself, later to other people, and nobody came up with answers that made sense.
Another thing that bothered me was the money. There were about 30 pupils in the house. Private patients paid, at that time, 100 guilders per day. Part of the pupils were paid for by the Dutch Department of Corrections. According to Dutch law you can spend the last months of a prison sentence in a rehab-facility. The state paid 150 guilders a person a day. That totals about 3500 guilders a day. The groceries were about 200 guilders a day, of-course they had to pay mortgage on the house and the electricity bill, but 30 x 3500 makes a whopping monthly 105,000 Guilders a month (about 40,000 US$). Average per capita income in those days was about 1800 Gld. a month. Except for the director all of the staff volunteered, so hardly any costs were made on personnel.
Nevertheless we all had to write letters to businesspeople, in which we told about our addiction, our wish to become a productive member of society again and our poor widowed mother who couldn't pay for treatment. If they could be so kind to give something, completely tax-deductible, they would do so much good for the world..... Addresses came from the yellow pages, chamber of commerce, business-guides etc. Every story was a great big lie, copied from printed examples, but 30 people writing up to 100 letters every day make up for a lot of donations, even if only one percent would give something.
I asked where all the money went, why we had to eat cheap starchy food with chemical colorants and few proteins and vitamins in spite of all the ranting about food chemicals storing in our body fat. It sure is easier not to put them in in the first place, instead of spending hours in saunas to get rid of them. And why sit on smelly second hand furniture with burn-holes when there was such a stream of money coming in? No answers.
When in full withdrawal from opiates you have little control over your emotions. :oops: You laugh and cry at the most inappropriate moments. I started laughing during the daily LRH-greeting ritual and they became so angry, it scared me. They reacted as if I was painting pentagrams in a Baptist church. I didn't mean anything disrespectful, it was just the idea that struck me as being funny. I was taken to the office and three or four staff-members were browbeating me about being respectful of their religion. What religion? I was told they were religiously neutral, an independent and secular foundation that only used some of L.Ron's techniques.
Meanwhile they forbade people to read non-CoS religious books during treatment. They grudgingly allowed the Bible because it would cause too much adverse publicity to ban Bible-reading and the Department of Correction-inmates had the constitutional right to the Holy Scripture. But the Holy Books of other faiths were outright forbidden. Especially the books of the Bhagwan were scorned, probably because Rajneesj was the greatest contender on the souls-in-need market at the time.
I turned my head away to avoid the anger in their eyes and happened to see some faxes from the CoS HQ in Los Angeles. Couldn't really read them, but I could see they were about money. Meanwhile I was getting really sick from withdrawal, and still hadn't seen a doctor. Bob was there for almost two weeks by then, but he also hadn't seen a doctor yet.
Despite this lack of medical care he'd been through the worst of detox and had been in the sauna for several days. They say you get the sauna-treatment only after a thorough medical checkup, but only if the right doctor is at hand.
Rules are stricter now. Since the nineties several people died from heatstroke and exhaustion after the sauna, but in those days they were rather easy on the medical, in Holland at least. We didn't have wrongful damages and malpractice-trials and things like that in those days. By now we have. Suing is not just an American hobby anymore.
Anyway, the whole thing started to awake the innate sceptic in me. Too many things just didn't fit.
I saw too much that didn't fit. Suddenly I couldn't phone my parents anymore. There was a rule, they said, no phone-calls during the first week. I had phoned home all the days before, nobody said that I could not. That was, so they said, a BIG mistake of the staff-member that let me make those calls. They all did, and Bob was allowed to call me every day in his first week. Another rule that was invented on the spot. I found out that Joanna went to visit my parents, against our agreement. She denied it when she came back, but later that night told me that it was not a call about money, but just a social call, to explain family members about the program etcetera.
Funny thing was; she only went to parents that were supposed to pay the bill. Nobody visited Bob's parents, Jay paid for him. Jay's father, who was divorced from his mother long before she died and had no money of his own, never saw them. The solicitor who controlled his trust did get a visit. The parents of the jailbirds never saw anyone to explain the program, their offspring was provided for by the state. Only the milk-cows were visited. And milked dry.
I got so angry over this, that I couldn't sleep, couldn't stay in bed, had to do something.
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The mind also gets extremely clear, it starts making connections it would miss when at ease. This is a dangerous point in the process. Enlightenment can tip over to psychosis at any moment. It's hard to explain, but everything gets so real that it becomes unreal. This was the state I was in when things really got bizarre.
Experienced psychotherapists, secret-service agents and cult-converters recognize this state of mind. Here the patient gets crazy, converts or runs away, loudly screaming. I suppose I did the last (without the screaming part) because they made three big mistakes in handling me.
In hindsight I think, first of all, the handlers they used just weren't that good. The real good ones are put on the celebs and other big fish like heirs to family-fortunes. In their fixed worldview they couldn't see some average middle class junkie beat the tech. The thought just didn't come to their brainwashed minds.
The second mistake was their greed. They should have waited a little longer with putting the fishing rod in Bob's hand. He wasn't turned completely when I arrived; that gave both of us the chance to talk to a known, trusted, and not totally brainwashed person. Had they given Bob the time to turn, I would have been alone against the entire group. The odds would've gotten much worse for me and my freedom of thought.
Third mistake was the given opportunity to investigate on my own. Again these prejudices about drug-addicts that are only interested in drugs and their own short term gain. They just couldn’t fathom the idea of a heroin-user being capable to have independent thoughts.
And they should have given me the sense of love, family, belonging, purpose or whatever it is most people desperately try to find, instead of creating an atmosphere of paranoia, lies, greed and secrets. Any popular book about cults could have given them the basic techniques.
NEGATIVE: sleep deprivation, physical exhaustion, poor food, humiliation, imprinting by repeating absurd formulas. The fear of losing life and sanity if leaving the cult. General society is dangerous and out to get you, be it (depending on the cult) drug dealers, Satan, the CIA, the KGB, or the psychiatry-mafia, the world is a perilous place.
Thus separating you from your true family and friends, so you have nowhere to go.
POSITIVE: Creating a sense of trust, “you can tell us anything, we've been through the same, we understand." Creating a false sense of family, offering a chance of redemption, an opportunity to set things right, creating an atmosphere of warmth, love and kindness, once the first phase, the detox or the drilling or the introduction or whatever it is called, is over. WE LOVE YOU!!!
Main mistake in my case was their failure to see me as a person, they just saw the addict. And I've always been a strange one among addicts. For instance, I hated lies,and I never stole from friends and family. And even in my worst periods, I kept a keen interest in the world around me. It simply didn't occur to them that they really pissed me off (excuse my French...)
When everybody was in bed I went back to the living-room, and started reading the course-material of the higher level students. I read about the thetan in me, acceptable truth, which means that you are allowed to lie for a good cause, getting clear, and a lot of BS about engrams, auditing, LRH as Savior of Mankind through Scientology and all the mad rantings about how psychiatry caused every evil in the world. I literally got sick to my stomach. I knew there and then that I was trading my addiction for something far more insidious and far more dangerous; a mind-controlling cult.
The thing about the acceptability of lies shocked me, since I was being told that drug-users are liars, which is a bad habit, and I always had to be totally honest. To reach the desired level of honesty, one needed Narconon.
And there, in the book, it was written that lying was alright when it suited the cause of CoS.
Even though I knew I was not supposed to, I tried the office-door. To my surprise it was unlocked. I took a closer look at the faxes lying on the desk, but they didn't make too much sense to me. Lots of lingo I didn't understand. But there was a steady stream of contact between Zutphen and LA-HQ, and money went from Narconon Holland to the Church of Scientology. Independent organization. Right. LIARS!
The next morning I talked to Bob and Jay about my doubts, and the feeling we were being brainwashed into the Scientology-church. Bob started getting his own doubts, but Jay was further along the line, and they've put a lot of energy into him. Big fish. I demanded a phone-call with my parents within the hour, else I would leave, and Bob would probably come with me. From that moment on Jay was effectively screened off from the both of us, and they tried to persuade Bob that I was a bad influence on his recovery. They tried to persuade me that it was a misunderstanding, that the phones where down and whatever, and that Bob was just wanting to make a prostitute out of me, like before.... (Sorry boys, but that simply never happened, just another assumption about a male and a female drug-addict living together), but I stood my ground. Either I'd speak to my parents and hear they did not pay my treatment yet, or I'd leave the place and go ask them myself.
They wouldn't budge, so I left. I suppose they finally realized that they couldn't stop me, and that, even if they could, I'd be a bad influence on the rest, so they let me go. Bob wanted to come with me, and since he nor his family had any money, they didn't try too hard to keep him. Damage control.
We left, I called my father at the nearest phone-booth and heard he did pay the 3000 guilders for one month treatment, and he wasn't too happy when I told him that his hard-earned cash went to the Church of Scientology. My skeptical streak didn't come from a stranger.
I asked him to come and get us, which he did. He picked us up at the station, we drove to Narconon, and I rang the door. Joanna's car was in the driveway, her coat was hanging in the hall, but the staff-member who opened said I was an unacceptable person now, only Joanna was allowed to talk to me, and she'd be gone all day. We could come back tomorrow for our things. I told him that we would be back in an hour, that I wanted both our belongings and the money my father payed. They could keep the money for the days I spent there, but the rest had to come back. Which was, of course, impossible, the money was in the safe, only Joanna had the key, she'd be gone all day, bla, bla.
At that moment I had another short flash of revelation. I realized that threatening with violence would make me end up in jail, threatening with the law wouldn't help because they have better lawyers and they know it, but there was one excellent option left; their fear of negative press-exposure.
I told them that I would give the whole story, everything we both experienced, saw and heard to a reporter of a magazine that was strongly anti-Scientology and had some good lawyers of its own. Their publisher had just won a lawsuit against the church about an article they published. Great timing.
I also told them I would invite this journalist and the local radio-station to witness how we we would not get our rightful belongings back.
The miracle happened. When we came back Joanna was there, with all the money minus the 500 for the days I stayed there, and all our possessions stood outside. Must have touched a sore spot...
I got money back from the CoS, which makes me one of a select few.. (Technically, they still scammed me for 100 guilders. I'd only stayed four days, not five. But what the ####) Bob asked to speak to Jay. But he was too scared, too intimidated, to come outside and talk to us.
That is the one thing I regret most, we couldn't save Jay. The last will his mother made up when she knew she was going to die, was contested by Scientology-lawyers. They won. The entire fortune was given at once to this poor insecure boy, who spent it all on Scientology-courses and was kicked out for drug abuse when the money was gone. Last thing I heard of him was that he was in prison for robbery, to finance his heroin-addiction. They took this gentle and vulnerable kid in, sucked him dry and left him to rot. They are just as bad as drug dealers. Maybe worse, the dope at least gives you some pleasure for your money, albeit only temporary.
And dealers are honest about their motivation. They don't pretend to save your soul while picking your bank-account clean.
I'm OK now, so is Bob, but it still makes me sad when I think of poor Jay. He never stood a chance.
Over the years at least two people have died at Narconon Netherlands, and it is still a registered charity, gifts are tax deductible, they put their fliers at youth counseling centers, centers for addiction advice, doctors offices etcetera. The Justice Department is still sending prisoners there. It is bizarre.
I really do think people get mixed up about the name. Narconon-Narcotics Anonymous-Alanon, it all sounds alike. Either that or they just don't want to hear, I don't know. It makes me angry that nothing has changed. The same scheme is still played and desperate people still lose. The lucky ones only lose their money. The unlucky ones lose their sanity, their freedom and sometimes even their life.
Victims are also volunteers that truly believe in what they are doing, and only want to help people. It is just that the organization is corrupt, so it doesn't work, no matter how well-motivated individual staff-members are. They are also victims, giving away their time, their energy and their caring spirit to make a couple of crooks rich beyond measure. Like the clients, they will only lose in the end. No retirement or disability plan for them when they get old or sick.
And in their Hollywood mansions or on their yachts Mister Miscavage and Mister Cruise and their minions and mistresses are having a great time, living their lives of luxury and laughing out loud about the stupid suckers who fall for their evil schemes. At least, that's what I think. But I'm just supposing. What do I know?
No matter how bad your situation is, no matter how addicted you are and to what substance, you don't need Narconon. There’s better options for treatment, both in Europe and in the Americas. I'm sure there are options in the rest of the world too. Fight your addiction, but beware of this dangerous scam. They are not there for you, just for your money.
Thanks for listening to my story, and for those whom it concerns: FIND HELP!
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If you meet Dr. Mood don't make a deal with him, you'll regret it.
"James, a Mr. James Westley." She paused a moment and scanned the room.
"Hot dog, that's me!" I grunted as I lifted my weight onto my left leg with a great deal of assistance from my arms, then limped forward.
"Right this way, Mr. Westley," the nurse beaconed with a chubby arm and pushed the door wide for me. She checked my vitals, tapping keys on a computer after each, then looked up and flashed a half-hearted smile.
"Room, 4 on the left."I walked down the hall to a brown door with a 4 on it. Inside, was a replica of the human spine placed on a small counter near the sink. I passed a tall bed with paper covering a worn cushion, toward a chair by a window in the back."The doctor will be in shortly," the nurse said, then closed the door behind her.I sat, losing strength as I did, and plopped with a humph into the mute brown wingback. I winced, gripping my upper thigh with both hands, until the pain faded then I loosened my grip and exhaled in relief.
"Fucking arthritis," I grumbled. I turned to look out of the window. From the second story, I could see the parking lot with its teeming bustle of traffic always present in medical hubs. Beyond that, I could see children running back and forth behind a chain-link fence across the street. I didn't have a wife, and in my brief encounters with women, I had always been careful to wrap up so no kids either. I was OK with solidarity because I had always preferred being a lone wolf. But now, on the downhill side of my 50's, my heart suddenly twinged as I gazed at the children.
How nice it would have been to have someone to sit with me or care about the arthritis plaguing my joints. My eyes followed the kids; they were kicking a soccer ball and screaming with excitement. They moved like a cloud of birds following the one who had kicked the ball last.A boy of maybe 10 or 11, kicked the ball hard, sending it up over the fence and into the small parking section adjacent to the field.
"Oh, no," I whispered as they pressed their faces against the wire. The ball bounced until a man in a hooded sweater scooped it up. He then walked over and conversed with the children for a minute. Perhaps he is scolding them the way a parent would, I thought. But then the man turned, a smile etched across his face. He tossed the ball back to the kids and clapped twice. He then bent back down and watched them, interlacing his fingers through the wire.
"He looks very much like a cat, and if he were to own a tail, it would be swishing back and forth right now," I thought. Unease tickled that instinctual part of my brain, bringing up feelings of anger toward the man. Two rapid taps on the door drew my attention away from the scene, and I turned to see the door open.
"Hello, James, I'm doctor Mood." The door clicked shut behind the young man. His eyes were dark behind gold-rimmed tea-shades. His skin was unnaturally pale, nearly white, and a distinct feeling of dread entered the room with him. He reminded me of a shadow in a dark corner that wasn't quite right or noise under your bed.
"Uh, hi, doctor Mood, where is doctor Arnold?"
"I happened to be in the office seeing another patient today, and, well, your unique malaise is my specialty." He tucked a clipboard under one armpit then stood placing his thumb and forefinger on his chin, pinching it.
"You're an arthritis specialist, then?" I sat back and crossed my arms. My neck hair was standing at attention, and little electric pinpricks flashed in brief clusters on my flesh as he studied me.
"Oh goodness, no… I thought doctor Arnold had talked with you. Perhaps I shouldn't be speaking with you." He turned to leave, grasping the handle.
"No, doc, what is it you specialize in?" My eyebrows went up as I looked at the back of the Doctor who had stopped turning the handle, "and please don't say orchiectomies or you can just keep on going, ha ha ha."
"I don't typically remove balls… though I have seen an occasion too, I won't lie." The Doctor turned, his face grave. I gulped.
"I'm hoping to help you with the cancer that is destroying your health."
"Cancer," I repeated. A sudden numbness crept through my body, like ice forming on one of those time-lapse videos. "Doc Arnold told me, I had arthritis… Cancer, you're sure?"
"As the sun comes up in the east, and you aren't long for this world if you don't receive intervention fast. If I may?" he gestured to my leg.
"Yeah, sure, whatever you need to do," I said.
He pulled out an expendable pointer and placed the pointer end to my hip. "It didn't start here, but rather your prostate. It since has moved to your hip, your thigh, your shoulder, and your chest." He pointed to each area as he spoke, then collapsed the pointer and folded his arms.
"Mr. Westley, I don't believe in dumping syrup on shit; as such, I won't waste your time. The diagnosis is terminal, and you have only a few months left with conventional treatment."
He reached in his breast pocket and pulled a cigarillo tin out. He proceeded to remove one, then smell it, curling his upper lip to press it against his nose. Then he clamped it between his teeth and lit it with a Zippo. He stared at the flame for a moment while it danced, then he closed the lighter with a snick.
The emotion was strange. I felt like I was swimming in a pool, then the water vanished, leaving me to slam into the concrete from eight feet high. The smell of smoke drew me from my thoughts.
"Isn't that against the rules, I asked." My brow furrowed as the strange young fellow perched on the side of the bed.
"Precisely!" He tapped the ashes onto the floor and took a long drag causing the cherry end to glow. "We get nowhere always conforming to the rules." He tamped the cigarillo out and blew the remaining smoke into the air.
"You've waited too long kiddo, now your choice is me," he said, producing a business card seemingly from the air. It was gold with black lettering that said Mr. Mood, then had a number listed below, and nothing else. "For when you change your mind." He smiled, handing it to me, then opened the door.
"I didn't tell you no yet," I said. He looked back, "you didn't have too." He slipped like a shadow out of the cracked door then it clicked shut."What the fuck?"
I stood to follow the man, but my leg turned to a bag of stinging wasps, and I sucked air through my teeth sharply. I limped to the door and pulled it open, nearly body checking Dr. Arnold in the process.
"Sorry, It took me a moment with the last patient, were you going to use the restroom?" I peered around him and then back the other direction down the hall. The chubby nurse was tapping at her keyboard, but Dr. Mood was gone."You know, you can't smoke in the room, right? It's against the law." Dr. Arnold patted my shoulder, "Mr. Westley, we should go in and sit. I have something to share with you."
"I've got fucking cancer, I know. Where's Dr. Mood," I barked.Dr. Arnold stood there, stunned for a moment his mouth making a shape like a small hula hoop.
"I-I haven't heard of a Dr. Mood, and I'm sure that I didn't share these results with anyone." He turned his gaze to follow my line of sight down the hall, then looked me in the eyes. "Please, Mr. Westley, we won't speak of the smoking, but we do need to talk about what happens next."
He nodded toward the room. I looked at him, my face hard and angry. Then I began to tremble, and finally, went back into the room. My thoughts drifted as Dr. Arnold spoke. I agreed when appropriate, but mostly I looked out the window as he piddled along explaining the few options I had left.
The cat man had retreated to a black van with mud smeared on the license plate, blotting out the numbers and letters. He remained parked facing the school for several minutes, then started the van and pulled out of the parking lot."Sorry son of a bitch," I muttered."Excuse me?" Dr. Arnold was glaring at me.
"Not you doc, there was a… never mind. I'll go to the appointments and stuff, are we done?"
"I suppose so; you need to get your affairs in order, Mr. Westley. This is serious." His glare softened, to pity.
"How long?" I asked flatly.
"I'm not an oncologist, but my best guess, I'd say six months, maybe eight." He rubbed his fingers along his brow.
"Hmmph, alright then." I got up, the leg screaming at me, I gritted my teeth and stuck my chin out. I wasn't going to let it show through, "fuck you leg; fuck you so much." I shook the doc's hand, then walked to my brand-new f-150, and hopped in. I turned the key halfway, the music came on, and the ac blasted warm air. I slammed the door to stifle the beeping, then started the engine and sat there.
The thoughts of things that I'd never do haunted my mind like ghosts. In particular, no family hit me harder than the others, like an ugly dark spirit dancing and taunting me at the forefront of my mind. I slammed my fist into the steering wheel, and then I did it again. I hit it until the skin on my knuckles peeled, and tears rolled down my cheeks. Then I pulled the shifter to D and drove home.
Over the next two weeks, I went to appointments and spoke with professionals who all gave me the same dismal outcome.
I began aggressive chemo the following week and puked every day. Not only after sessions but before, and once during. After a month, they stopped saying It would only make things worse if I continued and that I should enjoy the time I had left. I tried, the old bucket list gained a few check-marks. But every afternoon, when it came time for more pills, I would take a drive to see the world I was leaving soon. I'd inevitably end up passing the school, so I'd stop in the clinic parking lot, not to watch the kids, but to watch for cat man.
Many times, I saw him, always with the hoodie, always watching the children. I called to report him as a suspicious person one day. The police officer arrived and spoke with the man, who produced several pieces of lawn care equipment from the van and a few slips of paper.
Was I wrong, maybe he was just an innocent lawn care worker? I had never seen him do anything with the lawn while watching the kids play. The officer left, and I yanked the seatbelt angry Cat Man hadn't been taken away and thrown in jail. My shoulder exploded into searing pain sending white stars and little squiggly lines across my vision.
"Jesus." I gripped my shoulder, breathing hard, and then took a pain med dry in desperation. It became a welded lump clinging to my throat part of the way down. I desperately chugged an old coke I found in the back floorboard as the sun dipped behind some clouds. So far, everything Dr.- or was it Mr. Mood had said was accurate.
I pulled the sun visor down and found the card he gave me still stashed there. The same uneasy feeling welled up inside me like a thunderstorm was coming, with its' dark clouds and endless muffled bombs shattering the quiet. I slid it back into the flap on the visor and pushed it up.
"Not yet, you screwy fuck," I croaked. The bitter taste of medicine mingled with warm coke on my tongue. That night I slipped going into the bathroom, there was a pop, and my leg lurched away from me like a dog hitting the end of its leash. I collapsed, screaming, a jagged bone protruding from my night pants. I reached for my phone, but I had left it on the table in the living room. Blood spurted in unison with my heartbeat as I dragged myself out of the bathroom and down the hall. There was a crunching sound in my thigh as I pulled myself up the single stair to the living room.
I gagged, screaming with pain and puked up part of a meatball sandwich. It sprayed in a reddish fan on the carpet by the table. Using my elbow, I dragged myself through the vomit to where my phone rested. I then lie in my retch, my head swimming with blood loss and exhaustion.
The smell of bile and blood blended in a coppery-sour stench, as I pawed at the screen. I tapped the emergency numbers, blood smearing with each touch, then darkness flooded my vision, and I slumped to the carpet, deaths cold grasp on my skin.
I don't remember a light. I remember sounds, screaming, a child calling for its mother, a lumbering thing that shook the very ground when it circled me.
Then a beep pried my eyes to attention. The room I was in was dark. I searched the surroundings and tried to call for help, but something was in the way, and I couldn't form words.I could vaguely see a cityscape through a draped window, and machines were scattered around me, emitting low light.
"Hospital, you're in a hospital, James," I thought. A thick fog of pain medicine blurred my concentration as I searched for something to alert the people I was awake. My chest rose without my consent and then fell.
"Jesus, it must have been bad, they intubated me!" I thought, becoming aware of the tubes fastened to my face."You could say that again." I jolted at the sudden voice in the darkness. Then I saw the cherry flare of a cigarillo in the corner of the dark room. It's very odd having a conversation with someone while you cannot speak, it feels like being watched while you shit, with the opposite party's face only a few inches from your crotch."You consider my offer?" A dull reddish-yellow glow illuminated the rims of his glasses.
"You can't save me, no one can," I thought.
"Oh, but I can." He strode forward, "and I can do it right away." He reached into his lab coat and pulled three smooth stones etched with symbols. "Or you can die now, here… In this shitty little room with a shitty view of…" He turned toward the window, "whatever the fuck that city is."
He turned back to me, brandishing a wolfish grin, "Choice is your's kiddo, be quick though, I've got collections to make."He rolled the stones around in his palm like meditation balls; they clicked and scraped against each other.
"So, I die if I say no?"
"Unequivocally." Smoke seethed through his teeth as he finished the word.
"What do you get from me?"
"A small contribution from you, too, myself."
"Money, you want money?"
"No, not exactly. What I want is currency, though. The only currency that means anything is time. You will be taking a loan out, one which I'll expect returned in full. Otherwise."
He snapped his fingers, and a vision of plain black casket flashed into my mind. It was descending into a deep rectangular hole. The rain was running off the sides of the casket, and the walls of the grave. A single man clad in black, holding a bible, and an umbrella stood at the graveside. The casket shifted as one of the straps holding it level snapped, and it slid into the hole with a thud. The door sprang open, and a shriveled corpse crumpled into the grave. Rain and mud streamed along its emaciated face.
"Dear God, that's me, Jesus, help, help!" My corpse's eyelids bulged, stretching until the skin tore away from the stitches holding them and worms spilled from the sockets. I screamed, thrashing wildly, then my eyes focused and I was back in the room with Dr. Mood at the foot of my bed, my screams for help coming out as breathy "hurk, hurk," sounds.
"Yes, yes, I will." He lunged forward and yanked the tube in my throat. It felt like a golf ball ripping through my insides as it came up. He threw the apparatus behind the bed and then shoved the three stones into my mouth and forced my jaw shut. I had no choice, so I swallowed them.
He pressed his hand to my chest and chanted. There was a low crackling sound as my skin blackened, and the room began to stink of burning hair and flesh. Then he lifted his hand and stood. I reached for the burn, thinking that I'd find my skin bubbling. But instead, I found a tattoo of Dr. Mood's hand, which morphed into an infinity symbol."There, not so bad, was it?"I sat up clammy sweat springing from my pores, but my leg no longer hurt, and I felt better than I had in months.
"You fucking burned me, you crazy shit!"
"I gave you a reminder of our deal."
"I made no deal you-"
"Yes, you did. You asked me for help. Did you think an ambulance brought you here?" I stared with contempt at the young man hovering over me. "Now let's get something clear if that tattoo fades away, so do you. You don't want that to happen, kiddo."
"I'm twice your age, you little-." He brought his fingers up to snap them again."No, wait, what do I have to do?" I lifted my arms in the lagging ceremony of exhaustion.
"Just, do unto others, as will be done to you." He smerked.
"Pick the others you don't particularly care for, though." He lifted his shirt sleeve, reveling dozens of tattoos, all infinity symbols in varying shades and sizes. He pointed to a faded black ∞ near his elbow.
"I'll know when you repay the loan I've extended to you. Goodbye, James, I hope we don't have to meet again." He rose, buttoned his shirt, and left without another word.I sat back into the bed. My hands were trembling as they traveled over my body; all the pain vanished. I looked at the backs of my hands. The skin appeared smoother, no longer the paper skin of an older man with cancer. I felt my face, and even the familiar wrinkles were less pronounced."Dear God, I'm younger!"I reveled in this for a minute then realized that being younger proposed an immediate problem. The hospital was expecting a 57-year-old man, and by my estimate, I was closer to 40. Also, my clothes were gone. Probably soaked in blood and vomit, and no doubt burned.
I couldn't very well make my escape bare-assed. So crafted a desperate plan. I crept to the door (careful not to disconnect the machines I tethered to me) and looked down the hall. Both ways were clear. I had to move now before they came to check on me!
I removed all the wires and tubes then, pinching my gown, I darted down the corridor to the next room. I slipped in and found an older woman in bed with the TV blaring. I stopped dead, my butt squishing together in fear. Would she scream thwarting my escape? I waited for several excruciating seconds before a snore erupted from her.
"Whew," I breathed. Then I went about looking for a set of clothes. She was quite a bit bigger than me, and female, but in my current situation, the clothes would have to work. Out of the room, I strolled in a pair of white silk pants and a thin blouse bosting a gaudy floral pattern. There was a broad-brimmed hat to complete the look, which I pulled low. I saw a nurse go into my room as I excited the ICU.
I made my way to the parking lot, then tossed the hat and began to jog, keeping an eye out for anyone in pursuit. My muscles tensed and loosened, my strides were fluid, and my heart rhythmically pumped. For the first time in 15 years, I began to run. I imagine it must have been a sight. A middle-aged man sprinting down the sidewalks with a sail of plus-sized women's clothing stretched like a parachute behind him. I ran to my house, which was nearly 3 miles from the hospital, and didn't fatigue once.
I spent the next hour cleaning up the mess smeared on the tile, carpet, and walls from the bathroom to the living room. With as much blood as I cleaned that night, I concluded that I was pretty much dead by the time Dr. Mood arrived.
I showered, feeling exhilarated and euphoric, and something else, a desire, no a need. I lay awake in bed, unable to sleep. I feared that if I closed my eyes, it would be over, and I'd wake up broken again. Before I knew it, it was morning. The sun shined through the bedroom window and lit on my skin.
I needed someone, someone, full of life, but I didn't know why. I'd never felt the need for companionship this strongly. Except for maybe in the Doctor's office, but that had passed. I sat up; sleep wasn't even in the wheelhouse now. I got dressed in my clothes, which seemed much to ordinary when I inspected them in my mirror. After a shave, I purchased some new clothes (making sure to have a young lady help with the styles). I'd need all the help I could get to pass for a 40ish man.
I spent the rest of the day catching up on new lingo, and practiced talking to myself in the mirror. I learned that a whip was a nickname for a vehicle and that I wasn't a real person unless I had several social media profiles. I stopped researching and considered whether really I wanted to join this new generation when I found videos of people biting into laundry soap. A young woman jogged by my window as I sat thinking and desire sprang up in me again intense and unignorable, I would rejoin them, I had too. Surely not everyone was a soap eating dipshit.
That night I went to a club, to my relief, it was much the same, maybe the clothing and music were different, but everything else was as I remembered. I talked with all the vibrant young people. There was no reason to be bashful; after all, I had no way of knowing how long my youth would hold out, and my need overwhelmed any social anxiety. Despite my best efforts, the first night ended with me drunk and alone in the backseat of a cab. I stumbled up my driveway to the front door. Once inside, I ping-ponged off the hallway walls until I reached the bathroom. I puked then fell asleep on the tile.
The next morning, I came too with my arms aching. Pinpricks danced in droves through my arms, which draped over the toilet seat. A pounding headache, blurred my vision as I checked myself in the mirror. At least I had maintained my youth. That brought some mild relief. To deal with the hangover, I went to a diner across town for a greasy breakfast. The waitress walked up as I inspected the menu under the glass tabletop. She was dark-skinned, and her smile was big and bright. She asked me what I wanted, and I stated a hangover cure willing myself not to puke again.
"I have just the thing, sweetheart," she exclaimed, grabbing my hand. "It always works when I need a pick me up after a night out with the girls. I'll be right back just you wait and see." Something happened when she released my hand; it was like static, without the snap or the pain. Five minutes later, she returned, her smile was gone, and she pressed the back of her hand to her forehead as she sat my plate down."You must have passed off that headache, I feel all hungover now," she stated glumly.
"I'm sorry," I said, feeling guilty. My hangover had faded miraculously, and it made me wonder if this was what Dr. Mood meant.I paid my bill, throwing an extra 20$ on the ticket for the poor waitress who was vomiting in the bathroom. I would have to be careful not to be sick when I touched anyone. I knew I shouldn't, but couldn't stop the overwhelming desire to connect. I had to go out again. After all, I was feeling great. If I were to get sick, I just wouldn't touch anyone.
That night I went out again. This time I met a 30 something blond with large blue eyes. We bumped into one another, literally as a hammered patron flew out of the bar onto the pavement. The bouncers knocked her drink and her flying. I happened to be in the right spot to catch her. She began calling me Justin Time playfully, and I offered to replace the toppled drink. We laughed and conversed, and then I kissed her cheek. There was a spark, but not the odd one I had at the diner. I brought her to my place, and even though we said we wouldn't, we made love. For the first time since the night in the hospital, I felt at peace. I had connected with someone lovely. It was much too early to tell, but maybe someday, this beautiful lady that smelled like vanilla and mango sleeping next to me would become more than just a casual lover. Perhaps a wife, perhaps even a mother. I smiled in the dark at the thought. I had a second chance, maybe Dr. Mood was a savior, not a demon, and I had it all wrong.
She stirred her body a soft and sleek curve under my sheets. I kissed her shoulder and then fell asleep. I got up to make breakfast the next morning. Eggs with runny yoke and buttery toast finished with hollandaise sauce: jelly and freshly squeezed OJ. I walked in quietly and nudged her, she moved slightly moaning then placed a hand against her eyes."What time is it?" Her voice was horse and dry."You're dehydrated, and it's a quarter past 10," I replied. Then I moved the meal on a bed tray closer to her. She turned over and nearly knocked the table of food over.
"What the-!" I jumped off the bed and stood by the door leading to the hallway. She looked 50 years older. Her skin sagged on her arms like wet clothing from a line. Her face was zig-zagged with deep creases of age, and sun blotches mottled her body.
"James, what's wrong, James." she groaned and staggered as she stood from the bed. Her naked frame, once lovely, was a stick with sagging skin draped over it."N-nothing, Let me help you sit." I walked forward, my heart in my throat.
I helped the elderly woman sit and then offered her breakfast as my mind spun into chaos. She slowly ate, her teeth were gone, so she gummed the eggs and toast into mush before swallowing them. Dumbfounded, I excused myself to the restroom and sat on the toilet lid with my face pressed into my palms. What the hell had happened, I remembered her vibrant beauty, the youthful woman I had brought home last night. She had danced with me, rubbing her shapely figure against my body, and now this?
I splashed water on my face and steeled myself, then returned and sat next to her. "I need to ask you something, do you remember last night?"
She looked up vacantly at me, then opened her mouth, but she never spoke again. A look of terror spread across her face, then she grabbed her chest and fell backward writhing in the bed."Shit, no, don't do this!" I threw the bedding back, searching for my phone. I found it under her clothing and dialed 911. Then took her frail hand, she gasped and thrashed a little more, then went still.
The line trilled as her body began to sink in on itself like a deflated ball. She continued to decay rapidly before my eyes, the smell of death lingering for a moment, then her skin dried and turned black. Soon her skeleton was the only thing left. The bones crumbled into piles of white powder."911, what's your emergency," Jarred me out of the horror show transpiring on my bed."No, no emergency. I'm sorry, I um… I had some trouble, here, a few days back, and just hit redial by accident."
"OK, sir, what is your name, and address please.""James, James Westley", I told the man my address, apologized again, and then he said something that haunts me even now.
"Your debt is only partially paid James, I'll expect more soon.
"Wait what? Dr. Mood, what the hell did you do to me you son of a bitch?" But the line was dead, I hyperventilated until I almost passed out sitting on the floor in my bedroom.
After I regained my composure, I vacuumed the room with tears rolling down my face. I filled several bags in the process, then washed my sheets. I took the bags around town that night and dropped each of them in different trash cans placed on the sides of roads for pickup. I needed to find Dr. Mood, and I needed to hurt him. My worst fear of being alone forever had come to pass, thanks to him. My body was now even younger, but at what cost? I had mummified a young woman and simultaneously became an impromptu murderer. I remembered my tattoo and inspected it. It was a glossy black on my skin, almost like an oiled leather jacket.
Over the next month, I searched for Dr. Mood, sleeping only for a few hours each night. I combed the internet for anyone that had similar experiences to no avail. I also began to age again, I was back to 40 in two months, and then I started having other health issues. I needed more time to figure out what Dr. Mood had done to me, but I couldn't hurt another innocent woman by luring them home with me.
I was desperate, and aging more each day, then an idea came to mind. I had continued driving by the school daily, keeping an eye on Cat Man. I decided on the day I saw him massage a young boys' shoulders through the fence, that I would have as much time as I needed to figure things out. I would end him hopefully before he could hurt a kid. But then what, that's when I figured it out, I could have as much time as I needed. All it would cost is someone who deserved death's life.
I couldn't allow Dr. Mood to do this again. I had to stop him, I didn't know how to yet, but I would figure it out. There were more like me; people who were taken advantage of and pushed into a life they have no control over by Dr. Mood. Maybe they would know, I had amassed enough wealth in my life that I could live off the interest so I sold my house and bought a motor-home and now I travel looking for Dr. Mood or others like me. But I need to keep myself healthy you see?
So here's a final word of caution to you sick fucks out there. If you hurt someone young, or claim you have feelings for them that you just can't hold back. Keep in mind, I can be any age I want, and when you meet me, you won't know until it's much too late.
How do you feel about, Ebola, or maybe shingles for a decade, how about pancreatic cancer? I can give you these, or drain the life from you quickly, depends on the flip of a coin most of the time. I know Cat man is thoroughly enjoying stage 4 prostate cancer, he has two, maybe three months left confined to a bed. When I feel these sicknesses rising in me, I just pass them to the next deserving candidate. I know it's dark, and maybe judgment isn't mine to pass, but better them than me. At least until I find Dr. Mood.